I got more sand in my teeth last night.
22 But I say, if you are even angry with someone, you are subject to judgment! If you call someone an idiot, you are in danger of being brought before the court. And if you curse someone, you are in danger of the fires of hell. Matthew 5:22
Ok, I didn’t call my son an “idiot” and I didn’t curse him but good golly miss molly did I have attitude with him.
We were playing a cool Lego Wii game based on the Indiana Jones movies.
Have you ever heard kids play video games together, specifically the ones where they have to WORK TOGETHER?!?! It sounds like this…
Me: “Woah – nice shot!”
My boy: “Where do we go now? Let’s look over here. What’s this green ball?”
Me: “Wait! When you go that way it pulls me off the screen!”
My boy: “I know, so just come this way so we can see what this is over here.” (said in a “duh” tone of voice)
Bratty me: “NO – I don’t WANT to go over there. There’s nothing over there! UGH, forget it – I’m not playing this anymore with you!”
(for the record, you have to push that green ball off the top of that dome to get to the next level — apparently every 10 year old boy knows this and moms do not… just go with the flow, ladies and let the boys lead you)
I don’t know what it is about playing these games with my son that makes me revert into a bratty 9 year old girl, but sadly it happens. I am more patient than I used to be, but y’all, I have a controlling nature that is brutally mean to my child when he makes judgement calls with which I disagree.
Was I angry? Yes.
Did I walk away? Yes.
Did I walk away before opening my mouth? Uh … do I have to answer that?
I think I called my son “annoying” or something similar; because I’m a grown up and I know how to handle my anger properly. I know, I have issues.
So again last night I went to bed picking sand out of my teeth and I still have some grit in there today. I didn’t keep my feet squarely planted on the rock of Christ that is found in His instruction, and down I went … face first into the sand. Another shot at playing the game his way will ensue today – but not before I pray and then apologize to him.
Maybe you have anger issues with your kids, especially when they are in that
obnoxious wonderful stage of learning how to assert themselves because they have good ideas that are worth listening to. Maybe you need some prayer too before you open your mouth and fill it with sand. Let’s pray this together:
Lord, thank you for not punishing me the way I SHOULD be punished for speaking to my child in ugly ways, using ugly words. I don’t know why I think those words won’t hurt him, but it’s obvious that they do. I strongly dislike the way it feels to know I have caused him hurt. Create a strong desire in me to let him lead on things that will not matter in 2 years — or in 2 minutes for that matter. I want to create confidence in him and I want him to know I have his back, even if I am disappointed by his actions. Remind me that my words stemming from anger don’t just hurt him, but they also cause tension in my relationship with You. Forgive me, Lord, and give me another opportunity to shower my child with grace. AMEN.
I think I’m going to need some dental floss for this mouthful of sand. Hopefully apologizing to my child wholeheartedly will be the rinse-aid I’m needing.
Do you struggle with keeping ugly words in your mouth when your kids are pushing your buttons?