I should be more like ____, because she is obviously making a difference in people’s lives.
Ever thought that to yourself?
It’s hard NOT to when we have some impressive Christian women opening our eyes to MAJOR world issues and PS: it’s all over Facebook and Twitter.
Here’s what I know about myself:
- The ministry role I am in at our church is EXACTLY where I’m supposed to be and I am crazy under-qualified (is that a word?) for this role.
- I’m spending time with my family and making memories.
- I’m stretching myself with theology books that are WAY over my head.
- I have scheduled exercise days so that the week doesn’t fly by without some sweat (I mean on-purpose sweat … not Texas sweat) and often times I am out for a bike ride with my husband, talking while we sweat.
- My son is DIGGING his role on the kids worship team at church.
- I’m quilting when I can squeeze it in.
My list sucks compared to _______’s list.
Why do we feel like we need a “next big thing” when clearly God is at work with some pretty big things already. Why do we compare ourselves to others who are called to DIFFERENT things than we are? Have I gotten so used to rushing from one thing to the next that I have forgotten how to find joy in all the things I AM ACTUALLY DOING?
God has called me to:
- Be a wife … check, doing that and screwing it up sometimes with my mouth… and apparently I have a “face” that I make. Crap, I just made the face while I thought about the face.
- Be a mom … check, doing that and watching my kid grow out of one stage and dance his way into another (literally — if I could attach a video from Instagram here, I would)
- Be in ministry... check, doing that and I cannot believe He would choose me to serve in this way – WOAH Nelly.
- GROW in my faith … check, doing that through a summer class that continues to kick me around while I’m on the ground with my dictionary and a flashlight moaning “I have no idea what that word means!!!!”
- Be creative … check, doing that through quilting both alone and with my mom.
- Treat my body well … check, doing that except for when my coworkers tell me there is amazing CAKE in the fridge at church. (You know who you are and I know where you live)
- Laugh/Love… check, doing that so often that I’m aging my face with laugh lines.
- Pray… check, can’t STOP doing this!
- Worship… check, my favorite place to be. I would listen to all three services if I had the time and if it wouldn’t make my family make “the face.”
- Experience hardship … check, not my favorite thing by far but I am constantly learning from the things in my not-so-distant-past that either I screwed up or were outside my control.
So what the heck am I doing?
- I’m not on a plane to Africa.
- I’m not opening my home to people who can’t get their feet under themselves.
- I’m not handing out my lunch to the homeless each day.
- I’m not doing all these “amazing” things you hear about on Facebook.
But don’t be mistaken, just because I’m not on a place to Africa it doesn’t mean He hasn’t called me to do things that are BIG, to do things I don’t understand, and ask me to walk in faith to follow Him. And for the record, I also have a list of things I feel Him calling me to – and I’m trying to find the courage to JUMP into His will through faith in Him alone. But that’s a whole other blog post.
(PS: I’m secretly terrified that He will call me to Uganda, because holy-hand-sanitizer I have first world OCD issues.)
I am doing the AMAZING and TERRIFYING things He has called me to do. I don’t have to be like _______. I was never meant to be like her anyway. I was given my own scavenger hunt, my own terrifying task list that require 100% faith and 100% obedience.
You weren’t meant to be like her either. You were wonderfully and beautifully made in God’s image. Noah and Abraham were called to two VERY different things. Mary and Eve? Different things. You and me? Different things.
Be happy for _______ for following God’s prompting in her life.
And get fired up about the things He has called YOU to do!
THAT…. THAT is what we are doing.