coming up to breathe

I know there are a lot of people who are against medications and pharmaceutical companies… but I would just like to give a shout out to the makers of Mucinex.  Hopefully you can read between the sarcasm and see that is why I’ve been silent for the past several weeks.  I had every intention of posting the second portion of the waiting, waiting, waiting… and worn out  blog post,  but then my husband got pretty sick, right after an asthma episode with our son and all I could do to keep my head above the piles of tissues was this:

I do believe I have consumed more coffee in two weeks than I did in the previous month.  And I tried to smile through my fatigue and exhaustion.  And pray about the ER bills and the medications and the doctor visits and the Idon’twanttoknowhowmuchwespentatthegrocerystore bills.

My biggest lesson learned from this germ infestation is that I was NOT giving my husband enough props for the amount of things he does around here to keep Team Skaehill up and running.  And interestingly enough, about half way through his illness he said to me, “I don’t know how you do this all the time.  I’ve been achy and stuck in bed for about 3 days now and you do this EVERY day?!?!?  How do you do it?”

I think it’s pretty dang cool that God allowed us to see each other in a new light.  He has a new understanding of how big my every day hurdles can be, and I have a MUCH better appreciation of how much harder it would be to live this chronic illness life without a supportive and loving husband around to help carry the load.

Talk about THANKSgiving.

Sometimes we have to go through the storm and get to the other side before we can see our blessings.  What kinds of storms have you walked through that produced a new perspective on your blessings?


5 things I remembered this week

Multiple new folks have landed on my blog over the past couple of months and I figured it was time for an update to bring everyone up to speed on who this Ann person is.  This post is mostly about my transparent qualities that some find … how shall I say… disturbing.  But honestly my transparency is one of the things that helps me connect so deeply to others.

So here are 5 things that I remembered about myself this week:

  1. My husband can make me laugh harder than anyone else on the planet.  To the point that I snort when I laugh.  Which makes him laugh harder, and that makes me laugh harder — and we pretty much take on the characteristics of two middle school boys who laugh at completely inappropriate things, in totally inappropriate locations.
  2. I would rather put together a gas grill than cook dinner.  I can rock a drill — actually “our” drill is only “ours” because he married me.  That whole common property thing keeps me from really being able to claim it as “mine” anymore.
  3. I can’t handle the sensation of having something stuck between my teeth.  And I WILL stop to buy dental floss should such an issue arise.  And I will use it in my car until the issue is resolved.
  4. There is something very therapeutic about emptying a filled vacuum canister.  I have a great sense of accomplishment from removing a ginormous about of disgusting things from our carpet/floors/blinds … and anything else I happen to vacuum while I’m at it….. lights, fans, my shirt, chairs, the dust on the entertainment center, and … for the sake of full transparency… lampshades.
  5. I thrive in a clean environment – I don’t have OCD but I absolutely have OCD tendencies.  However, I seem to be one of the main reasons why we have stacks of random things in the kitchen.  I’m sure there’s a need for therapy in there somewhere, but whatever.  (Putting my shoes away right after I post this to appease my husband)

So there you have it.  There’s a little bit of the disturbance in the force of my mind.  So tell me something about you!  Tell me one thing you remembered about YOURSELF this week!