when worry steals adventure

I can’t do it.
I’m not strong enough.
She’s faster than I am.
They eat healthier than we do.
I have fibromyalgia.
My doctor said I shouldn’t.
It’s too hot.
It’s too windy.
It’s too muggy.
It will hurt.
I don’t have time.
I don’t have anything to wear for that.
I’ll have to wash my hair again if I do that.

All of the excuses above kept me from doing a LOT of things over the past several years.  You might resonnate with some of them, and with others you might just think I’m crazy.  That’s cool.  Sometimes I think you’re crazy. (said in my best 6 year old accusatory voice, because I’m mature like that sometimes)

My husband amazes me with his ability to “Just Do It” on many levels.  He can flip a switch in his head and say “this is what I’m doing” even if he has a list of excuses like mine.  His excuses don’t dictate what he will or will not do.  If I ever decide to grow up, this is a trait I would like to refine in myself.

Today I did something amazing.  I ran.  I also walked fast, but mostly I ran.  To most, this is not a big deal.  I have crazy friends who run marathons… in Texas heat.  #insanerunners  But for ME, this is a big deal.

A year ago today, I was recovering from a night out to see fireworks.  It wasn’t strenuous to watch fireworks, but the entire process of getting myself ready, out the door, to the field, and then sitting in the heat, staying up late, and so on —- that required a day of rest afterward.  My body couldn’t handle that much activity without a large period of rest the following day.

And today I ran.

I wish I could tell you that my “mind over matter” gear is finally un-stuck, and it is … partially, but that’s not what got me running.  I have fibromyalgia and I FINALLY found something that helps me feel good ALL the time, not just for an hour here or there. #workoutpoweredbyplexus  But here’s the interesting part — those excuses are still there when it comes to working out, but now they look like this:

I don’t have time.
Even if I shower after to get to work, I’ll still be sweating.
I’m too fat for my workout clothes (I know — you can laugh at me too)
She’s faster than I am.
They eat healthier than we do.
It’s too hot.
It’s too windy.
It’s too muggy.
I don’t have time.
I’ll have to wash my hair again if I do that.

Interesting isn’t it?  I feel SO great, yet I still have a list of excuses.  This morning I read this:

Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? ~ Luke 12:25

My list of excuses are worries.  All of them.  Here’s what I have to say about that:


What is your list of worries?  We all have them.  I have a list for exercise, one for ministry, one for friendships, one for parenting, one for driving…  Sure, the lists can keep me from doing some stupid things – it would not have been WISE for me to run when my pain was at its worst – but I certainly didn’t even try often to go for walks.

The worry stole my adventure.  Today I created adventure and left my list at home.


Go create your adventure today… build something, draw something, make something, call someone, meet a neighbor, exercise, pray for someone out loud. Get your adventure out of worry-jail and …



Stop the Insanity of Chronic Pain!

(see update at the bottom)

For the past 6 and a half weeks I haven’t stopped moving and doing and laughing and smiling and running/dancing up and down the stairs — because I CAN.  I CAN do all of those things.  Stella has her groove back! — wait, totally wrong reference, but you get the idea.

I want everyone to know right off the bat, that I am not cured.  The supplements that have changed my life will not cure me.  I have a chronic illness that I will most likely have until the day I get to go be with my Savior in heaven!

I took the plunge in late December and ordered Plexus products.

What the heck IS Plexus?

Plexus is a wellness company that has many products. These products are 100% Natural and all have a 60 day money back guarantee. There are several different products that can help you with many aliments.  The company does not claim to cure any illness but has a 93% Success rate to help and aid you with the following conditions:

  • Headaches
  • Irritable Bowel Syndrome and Celiac’s
  • Arthritis
  • Fibromyalgia
  • Anxiety
  • Thyroid Disease
  • Weight gain
  • Fatigue
  • High cholesterol
  • Diabetes
  • Sugar Cravings … and the list goes on

What do I take?

I take Slim, Accelerator, a killer ProBiotic called ProBio5, a multivitamin, and a cleansing agent called BioCleanse.  Sounds like a lot, right?  It is NOTHING compared to the regimen I used to be on.  Nothing.  No comparison.  If you have chronic illnesses you might also be thinking – just 6 things?  Yes.  Just 6 things.   But I started out on just two things.  Slim and Accelerator.  Because if you recall, I was a total skeptic and just knew this wouldn’t work for me.



What should you take?

I recommend that everyone start with the Slim, the Accelerator, and the ProBio5.  If I would have looked more into the ProBio5 when I started, I would had added it in from the get-go.  The combination of these three things will most likely put you into a detox  state and it won’t be pretty for a while.  I’m not going to lie.  You might get bloated, have migraines, break out in acne, have aches and pains and so on.  What’s going on in this process is the good elements (such as the vitamins) are trying to kick the bad elements to the curb (such as candida, inflammation nd so on) – and the bad stuff in your system is so comfortable, it just doesn’t want to go.  So it has a bit of a temper tantrum.  My detox period lasted a solid 2 weeks, but I have a friend who has also struggled with fibromyalgia and her detox lasted a little over 30 days!  Whew!

Why in the world would I want to do this “detox” on purpose?

Why in the world would you want to continue feeling the way you feel right now?  You’re already trying medications, therapies, treatments, stretches, exercises and saying  every prayer ever written just to feel better.  If you have made it this far, you can totally make it 14-30 days so that you can find some freedom from the grip your pain has on you right now!  And, if by day 45 or so you don’t feel any difference at all, you can make a simple phone call and get your money back.  Remember?  I had every intention of getting my money back after I proved to everyone that it wouldn’t work for me.

Will I have to take it forever?

You don’t HAVE to do anything.  Will I take it forever?  You betcha.  As long as they make it, I will be taking it.  I ran out of my products for three days and found that I was begging my friends for some of theirs until my next order showed up in my mailbox!  The fatigue came back almost immediately.  These products are natural – there’s no hidden weird stuff in them.  Due to company policy I can’t post them, but I will absolutely email them to you if you leave your email address in the comments.  Take the list to your doctor.  Research the ingredients.  Do some homework.

Will it cost me a lot?

It depends on your definition of “a lot.”  I was on SEVEN prescription medications, had regular appointments with my pain doctor, had to get terrifically painful massages to get the knots out, and was constantly reordering pain lotion.  So for me?  This is cheaper than all of that mess.  And I feel better on this than I did on ALL of that combined.  You need to talk to your doctor if you plan to get off medications while you’re taking these supplements – so keep that in mind as well.

This isn’t a sales pitch.  This is a freedom pitch.  Stop doing the things you’ve been doing if they aren’t giving you the freedom to get back into the land of the living.  Or at least give this a try.  This has been an answer to the prayers my family has been saying for almost three years.  I feel so alive!

Leave your email address in the comment section – or send me an email to annskaehill@gmail.com – let me help you get started so that in 2 months YOU can be praising the goodness of God in a body that isn’t keeping you from living your life!


It’s now mid-May 2014 and I am working 30 hours a week, cleaning my house, and running errands like a normal mom.  I play football outside with my family and I go for 4-mile walks and 12-mile bike rides.  I feel AMAZING!  I know I’m not cured but it sure is nice to be part of my own life again!!!

rest vs. lazy


Most of us go through our day jumping from one thing to the next and trying to squeeze in that one last thing before dinner or sports practices or bed times.   After all that, we need rest!  When our chronic pain is more than medications or therapies can tackle, we need rest!  When our brains have been going 100mph, we need rest!    Even God rested:

2 By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work.3 Then God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it he rested from all the work of creating that he had done.  Gen 2:2-3

But then there is just plain lazy.  We tend to pin this word to our kids’ foreheads on a regular basis… shoes out, backpacks lying around, a trail of winter clothes all the way up the stairs … and there they are planted in front of the XBox.   Sometimes I wish I had duct tape for my OWN mouth because there I go, spouting off brilliant and love-giving things like: “Dude, why are you so LAZY!?!?!  Pick up after yourself!”

And then I go sit on the couch and scroll through Pinterest for 30 minutes, because mommy needs to “rest.”
Or am I just being lazy?


  1. :  reposesleepspecifically :  a bodily state characterized by minimal functional and metabolic activities
  2. :  freedom from activity or labor
  3. :  a state of motionlessness or inactivity
  4. :  the repose of death
  5. :  a place for resting or lodging
  6. :  peace of mind or spirit

Ok, sure — I had minimal function except for my scrolling finger on my tablet and definitely experienced FREEDOM from activity/labor.  Motionless, check.  Repose of death???  Um no.  And blah blah blah — peace of mind or spirit… YES!  Child upstairs, mommy downstairs… just yes.


  1. : not liking to work hard or to be active
  2. : not having much activity : causing people to feel that they do not want to be active
  3. : moving slowly

I’m not going to pick those apart because it will cause too much harm to my Pinterest boards.  Ok not really — but you know what I’m getting at here.  How do we know when we are needing rest and when we are just being lazy?  Here is my opinion after 3 years of truly needing rest for my aching body.

The top 3 signs you’re just being lazy and using “rest” as an excuse.

1. You feel fine, you just “don’t wanna.”

I know.  I’ve been there.  You’re finally home, homework is done, chores are sort of done… and then comes dinner prep.  I personally do not enjoy cooking.  People like my sister can’t wait to try new things or mix this spice with that meat or whatever — we may look an awful lot alike, but I’m definitely not like her in that aspect!  I tend to lean towards eggs and toast for dinner because it’s easy and a crowd pleaser at our house.  Yesterday, I wasn’t in pain – but I just didn’t want to make dinner.  THAT was laziness.  Pure and simple.  Sitting on the couch with Pinterest for an hour?  More often than not, that’s REST for me — I’m resting my body and finding creative things that I can do with my hands once my energy is restored.  Be honest with yourself.  Try to push through the lazy times so that you can give yourself grace when you need the crutches of rest.

2. You’re considering picking up carpool in your pajamas.

Yes.  I mean afternoon carpool.  And I get it — BELIEVE ME, I get it.  There are days your pain is so bad that brushing your teeth makes you cringe!  The thought of buttoning your pants makes you imagine that your fingers are just bones with zero skin and tissue padding.  Doing your hair?  Not going to happen.  But If you’re capable of driving a car to pick up kids from school, you’re capable of putting some clothes on (and maybe a hat if the hair just doesn’t work out for you.)  Chances are if you’re still in your pajamas and it’s time to walk out the door, you’ve done plenty of resting and you can push through for an hour to get the kids home safely.  Getting dressed will help YOU feel better about yourself, and it could potentially save your relationship with your middle schoolers.  PS: Sweats counts as clothes.  You’re welcome.  If being a stay at home mom or dad is your current job, then do your job.  Once everyone is settled at home you can reassess and see if your body is telling you to rest some more or if your mind is telling you to just throw in the towel because you’ve already accomplished zero stellar things today.

3. You’re not fulfilling your commitments.  None of them.

I like to be busy. But when paralyzed with pain and fatigue here’s what happens.  I keep signing up to do things, make things, lead things because in my HEAD I am still a healthy adult who can be an active member of her family, church, and society.  But then I start cancelling left and right because I can’t physically do the things I signed up for.  This is not laziness, this is absurdity.  STOP SIGNING UP FOR THINGS IF YOU CANNOT DO THEM!  It’s ok, give yourself some grace, people!  Just because you can’t be the soccer mom who works out at 4:45am and finishes her day with grocery shopping at 9pm does not mean you are less than, that you are useless, that you “can’t” do things.  Once you have your list whittled down to what you CAN conceivably master (and I’ll tell you it’s much much less than you think it is — even for those who are physically well), fulfill those commitments.  Don’t use “I need to rest” as an excuse.  You set the pace.  You set the routine, and stick to it!

If you can’t seem to pull yourself out of the laziness rut, it could very well be time to seek some medical help.  At the very least verbalize it with a friend or your spouse.  Unspoken issues can become stone walls if we let them.  But once they are spoken and addressed, ANYTHING is possible!


{human barometer}

One of the most annoying things about chronic pain is that it’s incredibly difficult to find joy in the changing of the weather.  It doesn’t matter what kind of front is moving in because they all cause pain.  When that barometer moves, oh baby, I feel it.

Recently I was sitting around a table with some women from church as we worked on some assembly line packaging for an upcoming event.  We soon realized we were the chronic pain table.  Apparently we gravitate toward each other!  There was a woman who has already survived cancer, (only to have it again), a woman who had to have a crazy/intense jaw reconstruction, a woman who had back surgery to fuse part of her spine and REMOVE her coccyx, and me.  Before you have pity on us, it was actually refreshing to be around a group of ladies who “get it.”  They live it in my world (and so do their families).

After we joked about all of our medications, someone said, “have you been in pain since Saturday?”  Without a break in discussion, everyone pipped in about how awful their Saturday had been, myself included.  Another lady said, “my husband thinks I am crazy because I can tell when the weather is about to change.  He even looks at the weather online and tries to argue with me about the impending doom.”

So it isn’t just me.
We are all human barometers!

Even the local news did a piece on if people can truly feel the weather changes that are coming – and the “experts” agreed that yes, people with all sorts of medical issues or old injuries can literally feel something before a front moves through.

I don’t know if this helps you understand someone in your life who struggles with chronic pain, but I do hope it helps you realize that Aunt Margaret isn’t crazy – and she hasn’t been all these years.  She really does feel the weather change in her knees!

We don’t mean to be irritating meteorologists, I promise.  And we don’t mean to talk about our “flair” all the time either.  When we constantly have physical aches and pains it’s like sitting down in a chair at a Metallica concert and trying to talk about the rose bushes you planted yesterday.   Some days our pain is just too loud to focus on other things and we would LOVE your help to remind us that just because we are human barometers, we don’t have to talk about it all day long.

Please have patience with us.  Remember that our head-banging pain concert is stuck on repeat and sometimes the best distraction is quiet conversation, a funny movie, or even a nice drive together in the country.  When the pain concert is loud, it’s not the time to recommend they put their big girl panties on and go for a walk.

We know you mean well.
We know you want to help.
We know that exercise is good for us.

But please have patience with us.

Is there someone in your life who is a human barometer?  What frustrates you the most?